> Web service used to store test demos exceeds bandwidth limits
> Contacts the guy who hosts service requesting bandwidth upgrade
> He obliges and then finds out the cause of Bandwidth limit break
> Asks me about the license of the content and feels it could put his service at risk
> I explain to him that the franchise and the company it belongs to doesn't mind
> feels somewhat embarrassed about the game's content and feels obligated to explain the fandom
> writes a huge block of text explaining the fandom and why I'm in the 'herd'
> still waiting for a response with huge knot in stomach
> also hopes he doesn't go blab to my sister or outside friends about it
Is it wrong for me to feel so... ashamed to be a brony right now? :(
In other news I've got more work done on the game and was going to put up a video but the current circumstances has me questioning my bronydom... I hope this feeling fades before morning!
Incoming: wall of text. (sry, I've a lot to say on this subject, and am a long-winded typist.)
ReplyDeleteI'll just leave this here.
"Critics who treat adult as a term of approval, instead of as a merely descriptive term, cannot be adult themselves. To be concerned about being grown up, to admire the grown up because it is grown up, to blush at the suspicion of being childish; these things are the marks of childhood and adolescence. And in childhood and adolescence they are, in moderation, healthy symptoms. Young things ought to want to grow. But to carry on into middle life or even into early manhood this concern about being adult is a mark of really arrested development. When I was ten, I read fairy tales in secret and would have been ashamed if I had been found doing so. Now that I am fifty I read them openly. When I became a man I put away childish things, including the fear of childishness and the desire to be very grown up." C.S. Lewis
Okay, so maybe easier said than done, but there are things MUCH more detrimental to admit to than that ye think MLP is a good show, and has spawned an amazingly awesome community, of which ye are a part; trust me. Will anyone really treat ye any differently knowing?
I know how ye feel, but if ye like something, ye like something, pretending to be something ur not(or, inversely, pretending not to be something ye are) is IMO one of the worst forms of dishonesty, as it hurts you a LOT more in the long run than it may seem to help. Sorry, this may all be coming across more harshly than I mean for it to.
I've let a few people know about me bronydom flat-out just to gauge reactions, and let a few more "find out" on their own. The key is not to try to justify it, as it makes ye look "guilty" of something from the outset. Start simple; "Yep, MLP is actually a pretty cool show," and don't start answering questions that haven't been asked. I'm actually using the experience of people finding out that I like MLP as a vehicle to be able to tell them something IMO much bigger, but I digress.
If'n ye love what ye are doing, then all will work out. Things won't necessarily be easy, but they will work out. Sorry again for the textwall; currently questioning the wisdom of posting this whole thing, but, well...
Here goes:
It all depends on how you reacted: if you reacted awkwardly, as in 'too defensive' awkward, it may spring some weird thoughts at the mind of this guy.
ReplyDeleteYou have to say normally, but seeing that you already told him about all this background information, there is not much that can be done to change things.
Now, being ashamed of something is something that has happened to us all, and, in the majority of cases, has not turned out so bad. When a friend of mine found out about me being a brony, apart from looking at me weirdly for a pair of days, nothing happened. Not that you are too different from what you were before he even knew that or something.
Now, as far as I realize, this guy does not mind (or we do not know about he does or not mind) about you doing this, what is important to him is the license and that legal stuff. It may harm his hosting, and that would suck large quantities for everybody involved.
So, basically, it is not wrong at all that you are sort of ashamed of being a brony. It is one of the most normal things that happens when you do not want others to know about something: you may negate it, be ashamed of it or anything else.
So... no. It is not wrong at all. But that does not mean it is all good. It is a kind of gray area, there is no problem with it.
Note: This last part is to be read with a completely normal tone of voice, bacuse it may change its meaning when read in another tone.